A Woman, I will Always Love
I can honestly say I found true love with a woman that has been there for me more than any woman I have ever met in my life time. Never judged me nor ever let me down. She would always say “Henry, the woman that finds you will be happy for life.”. When she saw me feeling down she would hug me and tell me "Love takes time and to remember how long I waited to meet your father and how much it was worth the wait", her 43 years of marriage was the greatest happiness she had in her life.
She always saw the true beauty in me and always knew the right words to put a smile on my face. Such a woman is sooooo hard to find in this world. She is the only woman in this world that when I was sick I could count on to make me better. I have yet to find any woman in this world that can replace this kind of care and understanding. How lucky I am to have such a woman like this.
Mother I love you. You have always been there for me. You have always helped me see the good side of every experience I had in my life, good or bad. I found a woman who actually accepted me for who I am and not reminding me of my flaws. Never giving up on me in any situation. Even when I was mad at the world she would remind me how much she loved me. When everyone who has promised me to never walk, did, she was there to remind me I still had her.
I tried to think of a song that would best describe the love I have for my mother. The only one that came to mind was sung by Tony Rich (Know body Knows) you are now listening to the song and here are the words to them.
I was hurt the day you went away, these four walls closing' more every day and I’m dying inside and nobody knows it but me. Like a clown I put on a show. The pain is real even if nobody knows and I'm crying' inside and nobody knows it but me. Why didn't I say the things I needed to say, How could I let my angel get way
Now my world is just a tumbling' down I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around The nights are lonely, the days are so sad and I just keep thinking' 'bout the love that we had and I'm missing' you and nobody knows it but me, I carry a smile when I'm broken in two and I'm nobody without someone like you. I'm trembling' inside and nobody knows it but me. I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming' at night as if I thought you'd hear me. Yeah my heart is calling' you and nobody knows it but me How blue can I get You could ask my heart
but like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart. A million words wouldn't say just how I feel. A million years from now ya know I'll be loving' you still. Tomorrow morning' I'm hitting' the dusty road going to find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart and hope you come back to me, said when the nights are lonely...
I want the world to know that if your mother is alive and well, take the time to tell her how much you love her. My mother on 10/12/2000 was diagnosed as having Ovarian Cancer that has spread to her chest and leg. Such a sickness is now left up to God and her strength to over come the hurt and pain. She is living with me in my home till she gets better. My dad is also here with us. My world has stopped and is now directed only to my mother. I spend every moment with her and even sit in a chair and stair at her as she sleeps.
I hurt so much knowing that the woman that has never stopped loving me is sick. When I am in front of her I always hold a smile. A smile like a clown (Happy and cheerful, while tears drip down the side of my mask). This has been the hardest thing to do knowing one day I might not be able to hear her kind and loving words, feel her warm touch as she hugged me, see the glow she brings into my heart.
Love your mother today for tomorrow might be to late. I don't have anyone in my life to be here for me while I feel this hurt, But I know one day I will find the love she has found. I'm just like you or many others who have lived a life of hurt. Many promises broken, many fake I love you's. But I know for a fact that my Mother loves me and will never break a promise nor tell me she loves me faking it. You never know the value of a life till you are in a situation where you might loose the woman who gave you live.
Anyone who reads this, if your mother is alive and well, take the time to call her and let her know how much you love her. You have the chance right now and might not have it tomorrow nor next week. There is no greater gift to have a son or a daughter remind her how much you miss her and love her. You have the gift of God to do this. Don't wait till something happens for tomorrow might be too late.